Quick Update: My Sex and Gender just got weirder. (And Hotter.)
So, I was at the SF Pride Dyke March.

I was having an experience like an 8 hour orgasm, that started with watching the Biker Dykes rev up (I have some kinkyness to write about that at some point,) and ended with me finally walking out of the fray later that night.

A lesbian psi-vamp could rarely ask for a better time.

What I'm stopping my life for a moment to write about, is this:

At some point, walking with my lover, something made me realize:

I am not just an M2F Lesbian Drag King. That's almost right, but not quite there.



I am a Lesbian Bio-King.

Yes, a Bio-King.

Now, many of you are going to read this, and say WTF, you batty queer?



Here it is: There are women(?) who identify with gay drag queens. They have a cis-female body (like, with a pussy and boobs and XX chromosomes and everything "normal" in most cases,) and just feel like they are gay men inside of those female bodies. They feel, specifically, like drag queens, like gay men that mimic female-ness to enhance their gay-ness.

My life partner is one of these. She transitioned just enough to come across as somewhat male, and now lives as a woman. When she puts on make-up, she looks like a drag queen, not a woman.

Many bio-queens just dress up in the loud way that queens do, and think and talk like them, and otherwise, no hormones or anything.



What I am realizing, just now, is that I'm pretty much the other way around.

Now, I'm still very complicated in my gender, but this just sort of "clicks."

One of the things about most drag kings, is that many of them do not do the "king" thing full time, its a dress up experience for performance, fetish or play, or just a way to express different parts of themselves.

Its really not like being butch, though many drag kings are butch, but it seems more of a gentleman, or peacock expression in and of itself. See the dandies of the 19th century for a good example of peacock.

There are many peacock style drag kings, who are pretty well kinky high femmes most of the time in their "real life." I have caught from some women I've talked to who exhibit this behavior, that they secretly (or not so secretly) fantasize about having a dick to fuck other women with, but without sacrificing their femme female beauty. Just a hot cis-female with a dick. Most of these women are a little confused by this, and get there jollies through fantasy, dress up, play and performance, without ever really resolving the feeling on some deep level. (Until we can graft a functional penis onto a cis-female body, without also masculinizing the rest of the body, they never will.)

So, the realization I had, is I'm one of THOSE women, the High Femmes who dress up like pretty Peacock Boys to go chase other Femmes around for hot, hetero-mimicking lesbian sex and romance.

Born into an intersexed body with a (very) functional penis.

In a flash of inspiration, my life just made way more sense. With this little trick of wordplay, "Bio King," all these little pieces just fell into place.

The other women like me get to take the phallus off at the end of the night (or dawn, after the night,) and I envy this in them, though I think that they would envy in me the fact that I get to have the biological experience of fucking a woman with a cock, of pleasing another's pussy in a super-responsive, delicate and yet forceful fashion. (FYI, trans-women use those things far differently than men. We're gentler, and more able to read the other's body signals, generally.)

I now find myself interested in studying drag-king culture, very intimately. I find myself thinking of phrases like "bio-packer," which is a really funny way to snub my queer intellect at heterosexist assumptions while being really strange and hot. I think things like "would I tape my tits to go out?" Thinking about things like wearing a gaf (a strange little tool to tuck your dick, and make it look like a pussy through your panties. Its a piece of latex,) so that I could also wear a strap on over it.

Its all getting so confusing and hot, I just don't know what to do with it!



Now, the really queer part of it is this: I realized this when I was commenting on how hot a drag king I was looking at was, fantasizing about having her on top of me.

I said something like, "Fuck. I am so gay for drag kings."

Then I asked myself "How does that work?" I just never asked myself that, I just assumed they were hot, and thus I would be attracted. I was thinking about it, looking at this woman, so feminine, and yet with a very similar masculinization to their face and frame to mine, and it just hit me.

I'm a Bio King.

I'm a gay Bio King.

I want hot lesbo-fag sex with drag kings, with the added twist that one of the kings has a flesh cock.

Oh my fucking Goddess. I think I may be in the top five for "Queerest Fucking Freak on the Planet."







So, does anyone know where a hot, lusty romantic fool of a High Femme Bio King can go to pick up other hot Kings and Femmes for elicit trans-lesbian sex?

Ha ha ha!

When there's a club just for that, I think I win the game of life.

Perhaps, in the end, the real life changing aspect may be this:

When I realized this, I suddenly felt near completely comfortable with my dick.

It just made sense.

OF COURSE I'd be fine with my dick. I'm a kinky queer femme woman, who, if born in a normal XX body, would be fantasizing about having a dick on my hot, femme body constantly, and being a real strap on fetishist.

Don't get me wrong, I'm STILL transitioning more toward female. I actually want huge tits, and to be a consummate femme distinctly-female. In fact, I won't be truly satisfied until I am a knock out, Porn Star High Femme Goddess Bitch Domme, with her own sexy pussy to adventure with, I guess its just that I need BOTH.

Well, fuck, lets go for it. As an intersexed woman, I do indeed have a pussy and uterus, it just needs augmenting. It seems to be growing of its own accord anyway, maybe it will sort itself out! My, but the human body is a strange place.

Now that my sex-mind-body drives are beginning to align in a way way that makes sense, I feel more free and full of energy, and more comfortable with myself. Which means I'll likely get laid more, as self love and confidence are hot.

Convincing lesbians to get with me will still be a strange challenge, but I think the only women I'm super into being with anyway are kinky dykes who have already bent their gender and prospects for sex, so, I'll just have to learn to romance my chosen objects of desire.

I got a better concept of just how Queer I was by coming to the Dyke March. I looked out upon hundreds of thousands of women (it seemed like, I'd love to see the real number,) and realized that I'm just not attracted to most dykes, mainly because they aren't Queer enough for me! There were only a handful of fetish freaky female persons walking about, that seemed to qualify as possible-matches-for-sex-and-romance in the crowds (maybe we just mostly don't come out for Pride.)

Now I'm beginning to feel much more comfy that most sapphic women won't be into me, I'm not into most of them enough to actually desire sex. Sorry! You're not freaky enough! Now, conversation and community, yes please. We'll work on that one.



THE FOLLOWING, BELOW, IS EDGY AND SEXUAL AS ALL HELL. Just letting you know.



Perhaps, the pinnacle of this train of thought is this:

Tricking-Out-My-Dick.

Okay, so this is a woman-king's cock, is it?

Won't do to have it resemble a male member in any way but as a triumphant mockery of such a thing (as per the masterful gender play of any good drag experience,) as well as a female love toy in its own right.

So, lets get working on customization!

Options, options.

I think some sweet and eloquent little little colored rings would be nice. Many would cringe from piercing such a member, but then, I'm a pain slut. I have confirmed that my phallus seems to function halfway between a penis and a clitoris (HYPER sensitive,) so getting piercings should give me fucking orgasms.

Little lavender and pink rings! Maybe some studs, but they have to look femme-pretty. Its all about "how would a woman approach cock piercing." I have seem a few examples of other trans women who went this way, and we tend to like our cock art feminine and pretty, so I'll have to be VERY picky. I think I'll see what other women are using on their clits, hoods and labia, and maybe go with some of my sisters tastes. Its nice to be in a club, with little secret handshakes (ha ha ha. Handshakes. Sure. That's what we're shaking.)



If the concept of genital piercing made you cringe too much, stop reading now, dear reader. I'm warning you.



TATTOO.

Perhaps I will tattoo lavender flower bearing vines and filigree up the stem of my lovely rose. Hey! Why don't I tattoo it to look like a flower! Make the head into a rose blossom, the stem into a vine of thorns! Oooo! I am so spending some real time thinking about this.

CUTTING AND REMODELING.

Ever see that photo of the guy who split his cock in half, so that it opened up into two members bi-laterally?

I thought that was so fucking cool. I thought about doing it years ago.

I'm giving it SERIOUS thought now.

It started out with me looking at my lovely member, and thinking, "how can I make this more like a pussy?"

I'm really into working with what I've got, and just changing it. I find the SRS work so ineloquent, and I value my ability to orgasm and have satisfying sex. My devotion to self love overcame dysphoria for me so many times, and I want to continue this tradition.

So, I was looking at it, and thought it would be fun if there was a pussy opening from my scrotum/labia. (I have indeed identified that the scrotum and labia are the same thing, simply the male and female versions of differentiation. The more I feminize, the more my scrotum looks, moves and feels like they are my labia, so I just thought about it.)

If there was a pussy there... then it may as well open up into the shaft. I also discovered that the opening at the end of my "twat rod" (I love that one,) is essentially a small yoni, which I have begun to stretch (I can get my pinky in almost to the first knuckle, and if feels nice.) So, why not open it up, and down the shaft?

With what you say?

With a fucking scalpel, of coarse!

...

I know, it makes me shudder too, with a combined feeling of ecstasy, arousal and abject terror. Mmmmmm, abject terror.

So, I think I might start by making a vaginal slit up the shaft. Then my dick will have a pussy in it. You might say that's not really a pussy, but my genitals are already mixed, so it can get subjective. I also know how to perform astral surgery on the energy flows, so that I could, with energy work, sensitize such a slit in a way that works off of the same energy pattern as a human female vagina.

Essentially, I could make it FEEL like a pussy, and to me, that makes it a pussy.

Still figuring out if I like that idea. It sure would feel fucking AMAZING inside a lover. It already feels like a clit-cock, why not throw pussy into the mix? Penetrating another woman's cunt with a phallus with a cunt on it sounds ridiculously hot.

Maybe I'll do that, and then split it later.

RIGHT - DOWN - THE - FUCKING - MIDDLE.

In the photos, this guy had pierced both heads, so that he could chain them to his nipples. I think it sounds way hotter to have them chained to big, giggling female breasts. Then I can belly dance, and essentially masturbate by just shimmying and shaking. For added fun, watch myself get off in the mirror by candlelight.

I could also chain it around my curvy ass, and make a sort of belly-midriff chain using my own genitals. Those in the no could literally yank my chain (gently please) behind my back at parties, and even if I have clothes on, they could get me off just by standing next to me, jiggling my little chain while I chatted with others.

I could also then chain it to slave anklets (you know, the ones that also chain to a toe?) Now, I am a Pisces Foot Hedonist. This could get ridiculous, I might just do that daily as a matter of course of getting dressed. Every step brining raging ecstasy.

Other fun:

Fucking a woman in both ass and cunt at the same time, with my flesh. I enjoy using my hands on a female lover, I have a fetish for my own fingers diving into a female body, but this would be nice. Just turn your lovely on her side, a do a snake stretch to fit into her. I could then lick her leg and foot while we fucked.

It might be tricky, but I DO think I could figure out how to fuck to women at once. Maybe I'll use pumps after it all heals from the splitting, and make them extra long just to pull this off.

Really REALLY hot:

When split down to the hilt, the opening at the end will essentially be a yoni. I'LL BE ABLE TO OPEN MY COCK INTO A CUNT.

Chain them (cocks. I'd have multiple cocks,) around my waste and back, and I can then have lovers eat me out.

I also figure by the time I get this far in body mod, I'll be sterile, having had my children (considering banking sperm, I still want my family,) so when I ejaculate with this configuration, it will be essentially the same as female ejaculation. Without all the sperm, you just get a hot, clear fluid, so I'll be able to fuck around with women without needing to worry about pregnancies!

This would also allow me to fulfill one of my most desired, and least accessible, fetishes:

Scissoring pussies with another femme.

It would be a bit different, but it will just be like have a pussy with strange, long labia opening out.



Damn. I am so fucking Queer.

Who knows what I'll think up as I go through all of this?

That Mystery is kind of exciting.



So, that's the queer ass tranny report.

Hope you enjoyed!